Just thinkin'

26 April 2000

This time of year I do a lot of just thinkin', about where I've been, where I'm headed and the direction I believe the Lord is leading. There are a lot of reasons for this, my birthday is March 31st, so every year for some reason I get another year older. Also it is spring and when I see the new life emerge, it helps me to think hopeful thoughts about what the rest of the year may hold. With Easter being so late this year, it seems as this late season has also given me more time to just contemplate a little more, just what a miraculous gift we have been given from God. Our sins have been for given, I am justified as holy and I shall live a blessed eternal life. How awesome!

It was just 19 years ago on April 27th, as best as my aging memory can recall, that I went to the unemployment office in Lake City to file for unemployment. I had just been laid off from a job that they told me was going to be the last job I would have, if I wanted it to be such, until I retired. On the first of February of that year I had started this great new position, with over a 33% increase in pay, this promised security, a whole bunch of other benefits, and a great relaxed atmosphere. A little over a month later, I walked into my office after a meeting, closed the door and offered a silent prayer to the Lord something like this:

"Lord I really don't know if you can hear me or not, but I've always believed in you, and I guess I've seen you work in my life, but this isn't going to work. They told me that I could retire from here and you know that is something I have really never thought much about, but right now, this instant, I'm asking you to get me out of here, no body will understand, but I can't work here until I retire. In fact, I don't know how long it will be before I will die of boredom! Get me out of here, please!"

About a month later my death from boredom had been alleviated, it was a miracle! There I sat on the bench with a bunch of others, about to collect my first unemployment check for a good reason. Since that time, it also seems as if my great life changing events take place in late April with first fruits becoming apparent in May.

This year after I finished writing "Bright and Morning Star" two weeks ago, it was kind of like my life changing experience almost two decades ago. This time the prayer was something like, "Well, Lord as my Uncle Jerry used to say, it don't get any better than this! With what gifts and talents you have blessed me with, this is the best I can do. No brag, just fact! I thank you for that wonderful gift. How few people on this earth have ever have had this opportunity! To see and understand even though I've done the best I can do for you, it don't mean nothin' compared to what you have given me!"

I was probably one of the last people I have ever known, who did not know what they wanted to do with their life. I'm now thinking of John Johnson in college, who always wanted to be a dentist. We took organic chemistry together and he lived next door to me in the dorm. We were both sophomores, the only two in the class. He got two D's and flunked out of school. I got two C's and was on my way to bigger and better things. I also learned after that to scope out the competition in class and the professors and make the appropriate changes. I have always wondered what happened to John, what did he end up doing. How do you cope with having your dreams of your youth shattered.

By the time I graduated, the best I could come up with was something like, I wanted to teach biology and chemistry in some nice small town in eastern or central Washington. To teach Sunday School at my local church and make wildlife or nature movies in the summer. That was my scale of the good life.

None of that ever came close to coming into reality. The closest I came was an interview in East Wenatchee when I got out of the service. But while they liked me, they could get someone else to do the job for a whole lot less money, because of my college credits and they had to pay me for my military experience.

As I have reflected during this season, it kind of seems that I just graduated again. This time from my Father's school. I really don't know how it is all going to work out but, this time from God's perspective He has taken that simple dream and enlarged it mega-fold. As we continue over these next few weeks, months, or years, I will begin to lay out a business management system based on creation that I put together over my last nineteen year desert experience. I used to call it "Business Ecology" but that now is a very dated term. The new term again with some fresh insights I will get to in later weeks, is now called "Enterprise Symbiosis." It is still based on biology and chemistry, and Sunday school teaching. But the Lord has put it in His context and His scale of development. Instead of movies, it is now video, but the whole concept is basically the same as I had all those many years ago. But this time I know that this is not something I could do on my own, or even want to do. As my friend Tom Westbay would say, "It's not me!"

Life as a Christian is not easy, there are continual crosses to bear. They are all crosses of our own sinfulness. The best we can ever hope for is to see our work in light of its eternal merit, knowing that what you can do, "It don't get any better than this!" But still, and this is the miracle, it is accepted, with the pride and love of a Father. "That's my son and that's my daughter!"

We just celebrated Easter, or as in my quirky way, Resurrection Sunday. When Jesus Christ became the Passover Lamb, sacrificed for our sin, and raised again into life everlasting as a symbol of your justification. Just as the Father said, "This is my beloved son, in whom I am well pleased!" Through those events we have just celebrated, that whole promise has now become part of our birthright. It is the birthright of the born again. The word of Psalm 103 are among the many in His Word that summarize it:

Bless the Lord, O my soul;
And all that is within me, bless His holy name!
Bless the Lord, O my soul,
And forget not all his benefits:
Who forgives all your iniquities,
Who heals all your diseases,
Who redeems your life from destruction,
Who crowns you with lovingkindness and tender mercies,
Who satisfies your mouth with good things,
So that your youth is renewed like the eagle's
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Psalm 103:1-5

It is a good thing to read the whole Psalm.

PRAYER PLANTS.

As this Psalm implies, I feel that a new era of my life has begun, that my youth is renewed like the eagles. At first, I wrote, "was renewed", but it is written in the present, "is". Then so shall it be. Over the next few weeks (or months) I will endeavor to illustrate that renewal or restoration from examples taken from creation and put in the context of "Enterprise Symbiosis." This is really descriptive science, therefore it only carries with it the religious overtones that the individual carries. It will work for anyone, except those who want to straddle the religious fence. This, sad to say, is probably most evident in the American Evangelical Protestant Church. We want the benefits of the Christian life and also the benefits of the worldly system.

To begin the first step along this line there is a need for a new computer system coupled with a pro video camera. That with supplies and the like, would run about $4000. It goes back to making those nature or wildlife movies in the summer and the summer is coming up. Please pray for that equipment and any opportunities that having this capability might present.

Next week we will look at the present "tree of the knowledge of good and evil", Quercus trifecta, or, as it goes by the common name of the "Betting Oak." Climb the tree and depending upon the branch you are on when your life is over, that branch determines your eternal destiny. That is why so many people try to hedge their bets. To win, to place or show. Pick a little of every branch for a super winning purse.